Welcoming Autumn — 25 Week Bumpdate
25 WEEKS PREGNANT
Let me just say that this pregnancy has been flying by, I can hardly wrap my mind around how quickly time slips through my fingers. November has been a beautiful month for our little family, Brian has been making a speedy recovery with his hip surgery, and so on Sunday we drove through the mountains and hills until we reached we the little valley for some needed autumn air. It felt so good to be where life is so visibly thriving, yes of course the desert holds its own beauty, but those green hues found in the valley tug at my heart strings like no other. November is perhaps my favorite month, it's graced with deepened gratitude, family time, and my favorite holiday to celebrate. As much as I say that I can hardly wait to meet our little babe, I have the patience, and the hope that in 15 weeks we'll be having our little one at his or her scheduled due date. For me, there has been unexpected anxiety surrounding being pregnant, as so many people who I love and admire have gone through either heartbreaking experiences after the birth of their little ones, or trying pregnancies, people whom Brian and I pray for every night, and every morning as we feel such compassion for those going through trials concerning their tiny babes. I feel beyond blessed that this pregnancy has been as smooth as it's been, I truly attribute it to God knowing -- knowing I physically would not have been able to handle to stress of a husband in physical repair, and being responsible for keeping everything a float. Even in his repair, Brian has been a great strength to me, just the other morning I woke to the sound of his crutches on the tile floor of the kitchen, I walked in to find him trying his best to make me breakfast. It's the little things I dare say that have kept me at peace, kept me afloat. I've also taken up meditating in the mornings, and oh how that has rejuvenated me. So when faced with uncertainty, my midwife reminded me of the absolute miracle that birth is, how the stars have to completely align to become pregnant, and the science and probability of just that in itself. How that what will be, will be, and the only thing we can do is show gratitude for what happens, and understand that everything happens in its own perfect timing, even if we don't always grasp what that is. Every time my little one moves, I say a little prayer thanking the heavens for the reminder that things are well. It's wild to me how much we already love this little person, how connected we already feel. I think motherhood, especially today, gets looked over as an unnecessary burden, a chore, a distraction from career, yet for me, motherhood has been none of those things, it has given me wings and a heart so full of the deepest kinds of love.
So here we are, only 15 weeks left to go. Anticipating the weeks that follow, the blessing of seeing my family in February. Here we are, filling bits and pieces of our time slowly putting together a list of needed items and researching the best strollers. Here we are, six months in of our greatest adventure yet and we are loving every minute of it.
All Of Your Glory — Broods
8 (Circle) — Bon Iver
Remedy — Adele
Strangers — Jesse Harper, Aoife O' Donovan
Everything Is Burning — Ivan & Alyosha
Good Company — Bronze Radio Return
Light Me Up — Ingrid Michaelson
Black and White — Regina Spektor
English Summer — Other Lives
Paper Doll — John Mayer
Should Have Known Better — Sufjan Stevens
Water Under the Bridge — Adele